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I am a nymphomaniac with an insatiable sex drive and I am dying from inside due to the immense guilt that I am carrying over due to this.
I am a 34 year old married woman living in Mumbai. I used to teach 12th CBSE physics but these days I give tuitions at my home. I want to clarify first that I love my husband and he loves me as well. I never ever want to hurt him in any sort of way. But I have a very high sex drive. Something that my husband cannot satisfy and it has led me to have flings with multiple men. I know that you might be thinking that I am a characterless woman but I have tried to curb my urges and still try to do it but I am just not able to control them. I seriously don’t know what to do. I have sexual thoughts almost the entire day. Whenever I go out for shopping or for a movie, either alone or with my husband, I am constantly thinking whether the men around me are noticing me, whether somebody noticed my jeans or whether somebody is staring at my hips while I am walking or not.
In all honesty when I sit down and contemplate then I break down crying but no matter how hard I try I am not able to stop myself when a man makes advances towards me, specially younger men. It all started 2 years ago, one of my students was a BSc first year student. He used to take solitary tuitions for certain topics. He was handsome, fit and was a good student overall. I used to fantasize about him but tried to restrain myself as much as I could. One day after teaching I wen to prepare some tea for both of use when all of a sudden he grabbed be from behind in the kitchen and started fondling me. I tried to resist but gave in to him a few minutes and allowed him to have his way with me, this lead to the opening of flood gates because after that experience I am just not able to stop myself from giving into men who advance towards me.
I am destroyed from inside, my husband thinks that I am a trustworthy person and I keep up and smile and keep up the charade of being an ideal wife but from inside I am dying every single moment. I just can’t take it anymore and don’t know for how long I will be able to carry on like this. I am simply done with my life.